Okay so, haven’t done this in a while but anyway I am about to write a some shit about dumb shit with horrible grammar and other correct crap of that nature. Okay done with that. So it’s about 12am midnight just finished working out, just took a shower, brushed all that good stuff logged of Facebook, tumblr, pornhub lol just kidding but still just laying down, listening to music then I just drift and think just that, I’m thinking THE FAQ I’m so bored what did I do today what have I done all summer it’s been good don’t get me wrong bball, work out, chilling, but there’s that thing missing that key to enjoyment so I think further back I don’t miss school I miss friends but that’s not it idk wtf it is this is a persistent issue with me do just thinking I look over to my clock it’s 2 and I just think of good memories and crap and I finally clicked got it just got I felt so good to a point then I just go DAMMM haha…………………….
So what I clicked on is I miss having a girl I mean I don’t need one f’sho and I’m keeping with my commitment but still I just miss having that one girl idk what happened with my situation but still I miss callin that girl babe, text here early in the morning to put a smile in here face and wait for for that reply to know she got it, I miss saying yeah she’s mine, I miss saying hey babe how are you, watcha doin, I miss you. I miss going out of my way too do something special for her, I love making my girl happy I love talking for hours day and night, I miss so much holding hands talking cuddling *kissing* *that not much believe or not* I just miss having that title boyfriend I miss so much I can’t type 1/4 of how many things in a relationship is what I miss….maybe I just like making a special someone happy making them feel they are awesome beautiful fun and special everyone is don’t get me wrong but that one I wish I could meet I would make her feel like queen of queens and make sure she knows I’ll take care I her I mean I wish I could find one girl that right when I just get that one glimpse I can say wow she’s too perfect. SORRY to those that wanna be that for me nothing wrong with you it’s just what people call being a blind ass prick, but still I wish one day I could just fucking wow I can’t describe this feeling when I fun her but I’d just be choked up in word I mean I know I’m not gonna fin her right this second or maybe in the next four years but when I do I swear to all women I fucked over that I will be the boyfriend that you deserved when you had a shitty one like me before for that special person in the future HI, I’m C.J. And I LOVE YOU “BRO” JK no homo Sorry for repeating myself on stupid shit Kay I’m done